If you read my testimony, you already know, that from about the age of 14, I tried a little bit of everything. I rebelled against everything I was taught in church and tried to make it on my own. It was fun while it lasted. But as I grew older, and had a child of my own, I realized that I was WAY out of my realm! The realm that God had chosen for me. Unfortunately, when I did decide to turn back to God, I was told by my Bible study leader that "Once you've committed so many sins, there is no forgiveness." Well, that was it for me. I just quit! For about 13 years I quit. Of course, living with the knowledge that I was going to hell anyway, I did nothing to try to please God. Afterall, what did it matter.